11 Years on T

    I'm learning how to celebrate my gender expansive process, despite it being something that I've felt has been in solitude from the rest my life. Similarly to how my visible gender affirming process moved through a loud silence, for the past 11 years, milestones of my journey passed unacknowledged. 

 

    The silence was filled with a density I experienced navigating my gender journey before the "trans tipping point," and replaced by a fear of visibility and taking up space in this world. I mirrored to myself the same silence, withholding, and containment of my experience, seeing the evolution of trans experiences of visibility and joy as something for a new generation I aided in awakening, but not myself. 

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    Although the silence in my immediate life is still palpable, I've chosen to rejected my past foundation of fear, re-center in love, and celebrate myself in all the ways I have yet to experience, starting with this cinematic collaging. Honoring with pride, my 11 years on T and my 19 year old self who made that beautiful gender expansive decision, regardless of the backlash and isolation that I knew would follow.​​​ 

 

    Despite not fully understanding it at the time, I trusted myself and knowing it was what I needed to embody the kind of girl I am.